I Love My Life

There is so much bull in this wonderful world we live in and i can't believe the things this state is cutting back on. The school system is already crappy here and now they are cutting more teachers and classes. If that's not enough they are starting Kindergarten to full days next year. Are you kidding me. these are kids that are used to taking naps still. It just amazes me. I really feel that they should put more thought into what they cut our kids are just not learning all of what they should and not only that its so damn structured now they don't even make it fun for the younger ones anymore. No wonder alot of the kids don't like school.
On a brighter note, for me any way Basket Ball is over. Wow that took alot out of me and i never knew that I could be so tired all the time. Now what do we do well play and rest and now I can get back into my Bible studies.
Now really what happens I just get entertained by little dancing Children. These our only three of my beauties, the other tends to hide when mommy pulls out the camera I can't see why. I only feel less adventurus for now.
Next up is soccer. Yep I am putting both boys into soccer and boy are we all happy about that. Well really it was eathier that or Football and as a mother that was not a choice yet, maybe when they get bigger. I am just so afarid they will get hurt. Soccer and Basketball those are really hurt free sports right? Okay maybe not all the way safe. But for now I just want them to be able to enjoy life and being a kid. While mommy tires herself out and wears herself down. You know I'm just not young anymore when it is just me trying to do everything. But you know somehow for about 3 1/2 years i sure have managed. Someday that certain someone will reach out and really start helping. Until then I keep up with what I am used to and enjoy the love in my life and the fun in my life.

AMAZED

I have realized now more than ever how much i compare myself to my Brothers and sister. How different we all are and how i really feel like I got the shit end of the stick with so much. I love them all and really you never realized how much you think you'll miss them until they move far away. You see they can all draw and have really strong wills and well I am the one with hardly any talent at all. Amazing how 2 people can have 4 kids together and yet they are all so very different.

In thinking about all of this I look at all of my kids and really think to myself (build them all up and make sure they all know how wonderful they are) Now isn't that what you do as a parent. Well everyday is a challenge. My 7 year old just days ago got a referral i didn't ever know they gave those in elementary. His language skills are a little on the not so good side. He told a little girl that kicked him "F" you. You never really realize how much kids need a really good Male Role Model around. How do you punish that. I am such a damn softy. And everyone knows how not consistent I am Go figure.

Although I am very stoked that BasketBall is all over finally. It has been so hard for me physically trying to do all of that. I love my kids and we are so sticking to one sport a year for know. Its just that the last two weeks have been hell on my body it keeps telling me to slow down and i just can't. But having my Surgery sure has helped me realize how much I need to take care of myself.

Back to Basketball Isac's team this year rocked they won all but 2 of their games and he has totally improved on his skills and not double dribbling. Although breaking his thumb helped with that one. Moses my Skill man, he himself was amazing. Really improved and played like a champ. He made so many baskets I sure am proud of both my boys. They started Cheer leading for girls this year and well I asked my girls if they wanted to do that next year and to my surprise Anya wants to play ball and my baby wants to be a cheer leader. I would have so thought it would have been the other way around. Like I said 2 people having 4 kids and wow are all 4 of mine completely different.